It was hard to be happy when I am not
It was hard to act like i forget everything, while it all still running arround in my head
I cant forget, I cant forgive and i just cant...

It become so much harder knowing that being not happy can effect my health
I was suggested to avoid an unhappy feeling so my hormon will not grow faster
what??!!!!!
kok rasanya jadi tambah berat yah???
why do you choose me to face all this mess??
can you please take me away from this, help me to get over it??
so i can concentrate my effort to my health??
can you??
pleaseeeeeee....
pleaseeeee.....
i dont know what to do anymore....
it just too hard for me

*sobs*